bukan macamtu lah...

nad x tao na mule camne... sblom nih kalu de mslh de teman yg nad blh kongsi... yg fhm nad 100%... my sista.. tp kali nih die da xna fhm kakak die da kot... xtao nape... call x dpt... mcj x delivered... hurmmm... so ruangan nih la yg jd peneman setia nad balik.... nad x tao pe yg jd sbnrnye... mgkin slh nad... suke sgt bergurau dlm lmn sosial.. gurauan yg wat org sekeliling slh fhm... betulla kate org... sekali kite wat kslpn... susah tuk kite dptkn kembali kepercayaan org2 sekeliling... sungguh.. nad tao nad prnh wat slh... tp nad da jnji... xkn ulang kspln yg same.. xkn lukekn hati mereka2... tp nyate pe yg nad jnji n nad wat... x dpt yakinkn mereka... kesilapan yg akhirnye wat nad hlg kepercayaan dr mereka2.. sedih??? sgt2 la sedih... sbb nad ase nad lukekan perasaan mereka2 tnpa nad sedari... tlgla jgn slh anggap hub kami... xlebih dr hub adik n kakak... tu yg sbnrnye... maaf kalau guraun n rapatnye kami wat sume slh anggap... x terniat lgsung... cume ase kasih n syg nad tuk die da mcm tuk adik beradik kandung... sbb nad prnh de di klgn fmly die... n nad x ase pe yg nad ase bile nan fmly sndr... ntahlah... skrg nad xtao na watpe... na cr sista die da senyap langsung... mgkn terasa dgn tuduhan yg x berasas.. maafla dik... akak x tao na watpe.. na minx maaf adik da x on hp lgsung... xtao na contact camne lg... wat fmly yg nad tao berfikiran camtu sbb sygkn nad sgt2... nad ikot kate sume org.. nad xkan rapat lg nan sista yg nad da anggap cam adik kandung nad tu... mgkin kptsn nih dpt jage hati sume org n nad lakukannye... wat sista wahida.. k.yg syg kamu... k.yg x tao nape kamu senyap je... maafkn k.yg kalu spnjg kamu rapat nan k.yg de yg termkn terminum... halalkn ye... wat yg sygkn nad.. nad wat sume nih tuk korg.. hope pasni nad da x wat korg rsau nan pape pon yg nad wat...

perubahan atas kesedaran

mencr identiti diri yang semakin hlg... i lost my way.... tp skrg nad da sdr.. sdr yg masih blom terlambat... maaf yg teramat sgt wat ahli keluarga yg mane nad tao... mesti kecewa ngan nad... ampon maaf yg amat sgt... pe yg nad blh katekan... nad xkn sesekali melakukan kslhn seperti ini lg...ini janji sy... n saya akn pstkn sy akan tepatinye...

dear my sista wied n abg.ni thanks a lot... sbb wat nad ase puas bile de yg membela nad... wat sista trm ksh sbb dgr n fhm perasaan akak time tu... wat a.ni trm ksh sbb wat sy ase sy sbnrnye de seorg abg yg sygkn sy... maaf wat wied sbb akak kamu bermslh... x psl2 kna nyorok dlm almari... hehehhe...

org ckp penyesalan tu x berguna... tp bg nad kali nih amat berguna... sbb nad diberi peluang tuk menyesali pe yg nad silap dlm menjalani kehdpn nih...kesilapan yg mengajar nad tuk lebih berhti2... dunia nih btl2 penoh dgn pancaroba... yg kuat akn berjaya mengharunginye... yg lemah akan karam... n nad sgt bertuah sbb diberi peluang untk jd kuat... hehehhe... alhamdulillah... :)

i ve had a nephew... :))

hehehhe... start the new phase off me... nadia mohd nazalan... i'm being a mummy... horayyyy... its a kind of feeling that i cant express it to others... sometimes i think others will ask " should nad being too happy for having his first nephew? its like nad got his own son right?" ngee... is there someone over there who's think that way??? hehhehe... i dont know... and even have... i dont care... because it was my life... its my happiness... its up to me either i want to being happy or sad... its my life... lets talk about the expereince of me for having my nephew... i'm the first person that "dukong" the bby... and that was also the first time for me to "dukong" the newborn bby... before this i never have the experience "dukong" the new bby... because i feel so scared... i always hear eldest said " hati2... ampu kepala bby... die lembut lg" the word "lembut" always make me to stop the feeling to "dukong" new born bby... i only have the strengthness to carry bby that 5 month n above... and now... im not afraid anymore... Muhammad Adam Qayyum change it.. hehehee... and here some of the picture for my nephew...

can't stand it anymore... :(

hurm... i'm feeling like want to slap that fat chinese... i really don't agree with all the changes that just made by them... i don't know how my boss also can agree with that... for me the changes just make them as a management team easily... but in the other hand put us front office department in hard situation... i already thinking about to resign... wait until end of this month after seeing and have a talk with my boss... whatever will happen i still will resign... i just want to have a talk with our boss to let him know about the real situation... how hard we have to face the guest with various of "peel"... just imagine we supposed to serve customer for our service... but this changes make guest self service... fill up the form with their own... such a stupid thing ever been in our policy... just imagine the guest come late at morning... drunk... do all of you management ever think that we will only being scolded by them because asking them to fill up the form???? all of you never face the situation being scolded by guest and now asking for these stupid changes... please... if you all think that this is part of improvement... honestly... i think this is the part off trying to let the company down... regular guest already complain about it... dont let our regular guest go to find the another hotel... think out of your box... don't try to let u in a comfort zone... but business??? in danger zone... have nothing to do with me actually... because i already set a decision that i will resign... 1 month notice start from maybe middle of this july... so boss u can start to find new staff for take over my place... i can train them for the best...

today is my offday.... YIEHAAAAAAAAAA...

hehehe... it comes again n again... offday... means my rest day... :)
wanna join??? actually i dont have any plan yet... just going out this noon having lunch with my sis n find the new phone for me... ops... forgot already... plan yesterday to go out find a present for our lovely mummy... but only me n along will go... :(... angah got to go to work... so today was my day with my eldest sis... thats more better than i only being at home... sleep... eat.. sleep... eat... n sleep again... hahahah...this is my routine since being single... :P... dont have some1 special that will accompany me for having lunch... outing... watching movies... eating my favorite sizzling mee at tesco... else??? already forgot... too long not going out for dating... hehehe... at night maybe i will have a dinner with my bro n get my "ole2" from negeri sembilan... hehehehe...

MahU KEmbaLi KUruS!!!

bisakah??? hehehehe.... bisa lorh... already starting back to jogging yesterday... feeling so tired... almost a year i'm doing nothing to reduce my weight... is it true almost a year??? hehehhe... correction... :)... more than a year... actually its already 1 years n 2 month i'm pampered myself.. let the "en" & "cik" fat being too friendly with my body... and now i will not let them being part of my life... at least for this moment... hahahha... and today was the second day... and hope the day will be continuing until end... hahaha... end to where??? end till i got my aimed weight.... 48 kg... which last recorded when i was entered UITM... it means 4 years ago... last year i almost there... 50kg after going on diet n jogging for almost 2 month.... but i stop it when i go back to my hometown after done with my stdy... being at home... which surrounded by my moms cooking.. i can't stand it... at all... and at that moment...my diet and jogging goes down and down... and now my weight was 54kg... the heaviest in the story of my life... demmm!!!!!!!! seriously i dont want to stay with this weight... its too much... even if i'm not being able to reach my target... it is ok if i can reduce from 54kg to 50 kg only... :) ... mode hoping... :))

Terbukti cine cam korg mmg kafir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Geram ya amat sgt… balik2 umah terus je menaip… hr nih merupakan hr x best dlm hdp aq hye disebabkan 3 ekor cine yg mcm har**… pembetulan bkn mcm tp mmg har**… betul2 x bertamadun… first dtg je keje dak shift A gtao yg icy aka housekeeping manager ngadu kat bos psl kslpn kecik dr front office dept… bengang giler… kslpn 2 x desengajakn… dak 2 keje sorg kot hr ahad 2… dah 2 ramai plak yg check out… mmglah kelam kabut… silap amik blue chip dr board je kot… pas2 dak2 die g bilik nak kms de guest… kena lah mrh ngan guest… excuse me… korg baru sekali kena mrh ngan guest ats keslhn front office dept korg dah kecoh2 nak ngadu kat bos… korg tao x dah bpe kali kitorg kena maki hamun ngan guest sebab keslhn dept korg??? X terkire kot… slalu kena mrh sebab bilik xde towel, kat phone x lekat exit number, de gak kat board korg buh yellow chip dan bg guest msuk tp sbnrnye bilik 2 dirty… xde mineral water… bilik berbau sebab x spray… bkn nak ngungkit… tp pernah x kitorg ngadu kat bos??? X kan… kitorg cume tulis dlm comm. Book then let korg know so that korg x wat slh yg same… tp nih first time dept aq wat slh korg dah kecoh… yg icy cam har** 2 plak ngadu kat bos… fine… aq nak tgok stkt mane ko blh tahan ye icy… aq akan wat ko susah pasni… mlsh kecik pon aq akan terus call bos… nasib lah kan… ko yg start the war… so no peace meh… kite tgok pe akan jd… even kes nih jd kat shift A tp aq tetap bengang… dept aq k… so pasni mmg aq xkan kowteam ngan keslhn dept korg even salah 2 sebesar zarah… wait n see k icy har**… sebab ko yg start… n aq accept k… aq ase bkn aq je… dept aq, bellboy n reservation dept akan bergabung tenaga tuk jatuhkan ko… kalo kena pecat lg bagos… sebab kop on baru je kat cni… sowi sebab aq n kwn2 kat cni jahat…

Cine yg memang har** yg ke2 plak delah salah sorg guest yg c/in under aq… pg pas close shift tutup acc… aq pon dok relex… tgu shift A nak take over… then dtglah sepasang couple chinese yg mane lakinye sangat n terbukti langsi… aq wish morning ngan senyuman… die wat muke ketat… ok fine… so die pon tye psl bilik… asking for the cheapest one??? Sorry sold out… actually our c/in time was in noon… tp aq nih baik hati… slalu je bg guest c/in pg2 bute then handover kat shift A the sale… 2 pon ko nak wat muke ketat lg kan… pas2 dgn berlagaknye ko ask for the key first… hellloooooooooo sir,,, I cant give you the key without receive any payment… dan aq ase wahai cine bodoh xde hotel @ resort yg bg kunci kat guest tanpa terima apa2 byrn.,.. that’s our procedure… xnak ko blh blah… sebab aq pon x suke nak layan guest langsi cam kau,, cela**… pas2 blh plak bg kad crdt men cmpk2… mmg aq x amiklah… tgulah kau sampai kaki kau berakar dpn aq nih hah… nak wat complaint??? Complaint lah… aq kesah??? Ko ngat ko hebat sgt ke??? Bos akan tegur aq… tp nak buang aq??? X mgkin… last2 bini ko amik kad 2 bg kat aq.. baru aq settle ko punye payment… siyes kalo aq tao ko langsi time ko dtg je… aq akan ckp… “sorry sir,, we don’t have any rooms available except for vip theme suites that costs 422.95”,… baru ko tao kan… vavi punye cine… huh…

X cukop ngan kes 2… on the way balik…. Delah sekor cine yg juge har** n vavi… nih siyes x bertamadun… meludah tgh jln raya sambil bwa mtr… nasib beklah aq x follow die rapat sgt… kalu kena mmg aq sanggup langgar mtr die dr blkg… mtr aq rosak pon xpe… asal puas hati… (yeke) hehhe… xkot… maybe aq akan hye mnyumpah seranah die spnjg jln sampai umah… x pon smpi dlm mimpi… hahaha…. N padan muke ko cine vavi bile de 1 india sound ko kat traffic light… tao takot… maknenye ko mmg suke meludah tgh jln lah kan…. Tp tgoklah keadaan… kalu ko sorg2 je atas jln 2 xpelah… meludahlah sepanjang jln… nih x… de org dekat ngan kop on ko nak meludah… memang ko antara cine yg terbukti har** pd pandangan mata aq… sekian…

Wat cine yg len… aq minx maaf sebab terpaksa maki bangsa korg… sebab aq ase korg pon msti bengang kalo korg yg de kat tmpt aq… aq x labelkan sume cine har** sebab aq de gak kwn cine yg baik… cume hr nih aq x bernsb bek sebab berhdpn ngan 3 ekor cine yg jelas har**, cela** n vavinye…

Mode: pueh ati dah… sebab dah luahkan sume yg terbuku…

x KesABAraN RasaNyA :)

hehehhe... x sabar giler... tao pe yg x sabarnye??? jeng2... :) nad nak balik kg lah ujung bln nih... lagi 5 hari... dah 2 bulan x balik... jumpe mak... adik2... n anak nad... rinduuuuuuuuuuuu sgt kat dorg... agaknye kalu nad dah betul2 bekerjaya nti mcm manelah ye..... nak2 plak nad keje jauh... lg lah parah menhan rindu... rindu nak tdo ngan mak... peluk cium mak...mkn masakan mak... sumelah... nak gurau2 ngan adik2... men UNO... SAIDINA,,, DAM AJI.... x sabar juge nak jumpe anak2 nad.... nak manjakan dorg be2... mndikan.. suap mkn..... men2... teman si lelaki lompat2 kat laman rumah... bwa si pompuan ronda2 kg... x sabar nak tgu hr jumaat... nasib beklah mak nak wat kenduri sket... tuk along n angah yg dah besar perutnye... hehehe... n x lupe gak doa selamat tuk arwah abah... rindu kat abah??? sentiasa... balik nih blhlah "jumpe" abah... istilah yg slalu nad gunekan tuk g tanah perkuburan... slalu ckp kat mak... "mak ptg nih g jumpe abah eyh... akak, adik,,, kome nak ikut?" itulah ayatnye... hehehe... setiap kali balik mesti g "jumpe" abah.... bacakan yasin... kecuali time "cuti" hehehe... nti nak gtao abah yg abah bakal dpt cucu... 2 sekaligus... hehhe.. juge nak cte perkembangan nad skrg... semoga arwah tenang disana...

thanks coz giving me the chance to loved and be loved... :)

x tao nape... tergerak hati nak menulis psl relationship with my "hby"... :P.... hehehhe... maybe sebab dah lame x jiwang2 kot... hahhaa... tp pe yg nak dcrtkn kali nih bkn cte best tp sedih wat "hny"... last week sab2 ahad n isnin.. "hny" amik cuti... sebab "hby" ckp nak kuar be4 "hby" g pinang... "hny" pon amik cuti ngan hrpn nak spent time ngan "hby" be4 "hby" g pinang... hr sab2 "hny" sampai kg pagi... sebab nak ikut "hby" g men futsal... "hby" yg ajak.. ckp nak amik "hny" kat umah pg 2... "hny mcj... "hby" x eply... pas2 baru "hby" eply... minx sowi sebab xleh amik "hny" kwn "hby" x bwa kete... so dorg tumpang "hby"... xpelah... "hny" x kisah... pas2 mlm 2 "hny" tgu "hby" mcj... kot2 lah "hby" nak ckp psl nak kuar sok... tp... xde pon... hr ahad... x kuar gak... mlm 2 baru "hby" mcj... "hby" minx sowi... sebab x dpt kuar... "hby" de keje siang td... "hny" ok je... sebab ngat isnin blh jumpe "hby" jap... tp... x jumpe gak kan syg... sebab "hby" ckp nak g pinang sok... so... xdptlah jumpe kan.... huhu... "hny" sedeh tao... pasni x tao bile plak blh jumpe... tp "hby" terlalu positif... "hby" ckp len kali blh lg kan... huhuhu... 2 yg wat "hny" tertarik ngan "hby"... suke berfikiran positif... x fikir pendek... pape pon "hny" tgu time tuk jumpe "hby"... pandai2 jage diri kat pinang k...

Takes 3 weeks to recover???

Xtao macamana nak start… tp nilah pengalaman nad menghadapi accident… be4 this prnh cte psl scooter yg tibe2 timing belt putus… tp kali nih berbeza… accident dalam erti kata yg sebenar… kerosakan n juga kecederaan… cume x lengkap tanpa report… pg 2 nad ngan niat nak hntr resignation letter n uniform ke tmpt keja nad… paragon city hotel… resignation letter nad x diterima oleh f/o manager… katanya amik mase tuk berfikir… dtg bile dah de kptsn… so nad pon balik pas chit chat ngan membe2 kat paragon… yg ramainye lelaki… time 2lah nak tukar2 no phone… yelah sepanjang nad bekerja kat ci2 xde sorg clique pon yg de phone num nad… except nana.. 2pon nad de pesan kat die… please keep it safe… bkn pe… nad x nak de gangguan… yelah… yg minx no nad 2 sume dak2 laki kt si2… maintenance… nad x sukelah kalo nti privacy nad n keja x diasingkan… so sume clique kat paragon anggap nad jual mahal n dah de bf… n nad mengaku yg nad de bf walaupun xde… hehehe… alasannye simple… nad xmao de gangguan.. hehehe… on the way balik dr paragon nad nak g ipoh garden… de keja kosong as account clerk kat area ci2… time 2lah kat roundabout nad dilanggar dr belakang… kelisa… mmg x sedar yg kena langgar 2 nad… dgr org riuh2… tp x tao nad yg terlibat… sampai de 1 abg angkat nad dok kat divider jalan n die tye ok x.. time 2 baru nad sedar.. n tgok plak kekasih hati nad yg dah calar balar…. Huhuhu… motor nad… x sampai setahun… sedey sgt2… pas2 ramailah org yg benti n tlg… kecederaan nad??? X teruk sgt… cume luke di kaki, lutut n siku… time 2 siyes x tao camne nak settle.. call along nad.. die kat court… angah nad plak mmg kalo keja x bwa hp… so nak x nak nad call wan… dak paragon… nasib beklah td die miscall nad… die pon dtg ngan logan… dorg yg ckp ngan driver kelisa 2… so die akan biaya kos repair mtr n bwa nad g klinik… dah hntr mtr g bengkel glah klinik… time tgu giliran 2 along pon sampai… time cuci luka 2 ase cam nak nangis… tp malu.. hhehehe… ase nak nangis sebab pedih n juga suar khakis kesygn nad terpaksa dikoyak… huhuhu… pas2 g xtray tgn.. sebab siku nad ase sakit… xleh nak straight… masuk angin kot… pas2 doktor ckp xde pape… x patah.. cume soft tissue injured…tgn nad dibalut then pakai anduh…n g pharmacy amik ubat… pas2 along hntr balik umah… kat umah nak tukar baju… lg sekali… baju nad digunting oleh along sebab xleh nak buka… huhuhu… hbs sume kena buang… so bermulalah hdp nad sbgai seorg yg kurg upaya,,, hehehe… dok kat umah sorg2.. x gtao mak yg nad accident… mlm 2 baru call mak gtao… nasib bek x kena leter panjang.. huh selamat… pas2 dok umah then mlm sab2 2 g j.j ngan along, angah n suami dorg… nak tgok wyg… nad dipaksa… g mkn kat johnys.. malu giler time 2… jalan agak terhincut-hincut… mkn plak pakai tgn kiri… pegang sudu pon ase janggal… alahai.. lame manalah nak jd “kidal” nih… hr ahad angah hntr nad balik kg… yeay… hoorayyy… so kat kg maklah jd “doctor” nad… hehehe… seminggu kat kg mndi dok atas kerusi.. rambut akak yg syampookan… adik plak tlg ikatkan…. Yg len2 2 xyah ctelah… bju blh pakai sndr.. cume… hehehe malulah nak ckp… fikirlah sndr… kalo rambut pon adik yg ikatkan… Mkn still pakai tgn kiri… siksanya ase… skrg dah 2 mgu… dah blh menaip pkai tgn kanan… cume tgn nad x lah recover sepenuhnya… still sakit kalo angkat berat2… nak g urut??? Next week kot… hahaha… penakut kan… takut sakit… so 2 jelah pengalaman nad ngan excident… bersyukur ya amat sebab kecederaan yg nad hadapi xlah teruk sgt… kalo tgn x injured asenye dah lame nad blh bwa mtr… hehehe…